When I wake up, the first thing I do is root myself in connection to my best, purest intentions. I don’t know what the greatest common good is, but I know that I want to be a contributor. I give a few minutes of focus to being open to that. Some call that prayer, some call it meditation. It’s really just calibrating my compass.
The next thing I do is attempt to embody those intentions in action. For me, that’s a lot of different things. One task will require another task in order to be effective. Eventually I’ve done so many other different things that all I’ve really accomplished is strengthening the foundation for succeeding at that first task, which I didn’t get to work on too much.
Does this sound familiar?
Before I know it, it’s time to go to sleep again. Having usually achieved more incremental progress than recognizable results, I try to console myself with the reminder that I’m not Superman or Popeye, and that I can’t currently afford to hire help.
I know that I am not the only person who experiences this.
I suppose I’m saying that you can know fully that you’re acting in harmony with your best intentions and still feel like a failure. If you experience this, I want you to know that you are not alone.
The good news is that you have high expectations of yourself, and you’re trying to realize them in a world designed to challenge you. It’s practically a law of physics that the challenges will increase in tandem with your ever-expanding expectations. Your intentions are a physical phenomenon, remember. Consider what they’re made of: Chemicals!
Remember also that your actions and work are a result of your intentions, and that sometimes they’re the only result you’ll get to enjoy.
So have good intentions and enjoy your work. Enjoy a day off if you’re into that sort of thing. You’re doing okay, and there’s only so much you can change.